Admiration is a strange thing

Admiration is a strange thing, when you are at the receiving end constantly.

There is a time when you are greatly admired and looked upon with awe by a person. That person likes you immensely which is quite visible. And you start liking that person too. You are appreciated for your good work at every step by that person. You become accustomed to that admiration so much so that you expect it at every little accomplishment of yours. And sometimes, even when you have not attained anything. Eventually you get into a habit of expecting more even when there is no room for some.

Then comes a day, when you fail to get a reaction from the person who generally appreciated you. Possibly because that person is familiar to all the things that you have done till now and he/she is not amazed anymore. It pricks you a little. But when in front of you, that same person starts praising someone else regularly, it pricks a lot. You feel betrayed, which is hardly a feeling that should be felt under these circumstances. You were never promised anything then how can you feel betrayed? If it made you mad, at least you would have had a release but anger never comes into the picture.

At first, I know there are very few people who appreciate others on every tiny little thing, but the fact remains that there are. Secondly, I really don’t understand the feelings that are roused by such events. What to make of them? What to do under these circumstances? It completely becomes impossible to daily see that same person admiring someone else without feeling left out. But on the other hand, it is not even a single bit unfair.

One thing that I can say is it’s difficult to analyze this particular complicated emotion and the reactions it can cause.